as time flies by

well where have I been? riding the wave of the first winter colds as they make their way through the house. bickering with M about the reality of really being able to make a baby #3 happen financially, finally deciding to inseminate back on October 4&5 and then waiting.

and waiting - and feeling very shut out by M. she decided that her tactic in dealing with this cycle was just to ignore it. ingore everything - just try and not think about it. sounds like a good plan as I sit down and try and write it out, the only problem with it, is being the one on the other side. It was a tough few weeks waiting, and feeling like a bit of an outsider.

then - we got this.


well i guess the answer is here. (yes, it says pregnancy - it's incredibly blurry - sorry)

Luckily we had already schedule a couples retreat away for this past weekend. Honestly, it could not have come at a better time. It gave us a safe time, and the necessary time to speak truly about our feelings about everything. We are both over the moon excited about this new little being coming into our lives - and just trying to deal with the anxieties about all of the logistics.

So I guess we will now be truly riding this wave. And I am hopeful if we make it through all of this together, we are going to be so much stronger individually. But it is already tough being the one on the other side. And M - she is going to have to find some way to deal with all of the attention that the next 9 months are going to bring.